Motherhood after cervical cancer can seem like an incredible dream. You may pinch yourself, wondering if it's really happening.
The pregnancy ultrasounds can go a long way to reassuring you that the baby is doing well, and I loved that! The pregnancy hormones change your body so much, and every bit of that made me feel better, too.
But at the same time, anxiety is normal, especially if you're pregnant six months to a year after surgery. It takes time to recover from the shock and grief of a cancer diagnosis.
Some women will delay buying anything for the baby until very late in their pregnancies because they don't want to "jinx" it. That's not unique to cancer survivors, but it's very common among survivors.
One thing that is true of any cancer diagnosis is that it changes how you view your body. Before the diagnosis, you may have felt pretty good about yourself and trusted your body, but afterwards, you question every twinge, cramp and discomfort.
As time goes on, you will feel less and less of that, which is important because you have to move on and focus on your life ahead. Children need to feel that you are confident.
Just know that it is normal to be worried that the cancer will come back, but don't let it rule your life.
As you start thinking about your pregnancy, delivery and future babies, you might take a look at my favorite websites and books. I added a list here for you to go to.
For some women, to have their own biological children, they will need to use a surrogate. Even if you don't get to experience pregnancy, raising the child is the most important part.
And having gone through everything, I think, makes being a mother all that much sweeter. You won't take it for granted, and you have some life experience to share.